It’s been a while since I posted an update on my training/fitness/weight loss and OperationMOVE journey. It’s the second month of OM (hosted by Kate at Kate Says Stuff) and already I am about a quarter of the way behind. See, I based my minutes on 2 x 60 minutes PT each week, 2 x 30 minute runs and 1 x 50 minute run each week. Sadly, while I’m doing well with the PT sessions, my running is failing miserably. Actually, the last 2 times I went for a run, my heart (and my legs, arms and everything else) was just not in it. It was hard to get going, and even harder to keep going.
I am not a natural-born runner. My husband can sit out 6+ months and then go for a 5k run without too much effort. Me on the other hand, if I sat out 6 WEEKS I’d be starting almost back at square one, unable to run 1km. In my head I know this, yet I’ve still not made an effort to find the time to get these runs in. And for the rest of this month, time is something I have very little of spare. My boss is on holidays so I’m working 12 out of 14 days, and then we go on holidays. Between that and personal training, there’s very little time to get out for a run. But that’s a weak excuse. I could wake up earlier (gosh the sun is up at 5, why not me too?) or I could not put so much pressure on to run a certain distance or time. Even going for a 20 minute run in the mornings would be beneficial, right?
And so it is, I find myself sitting at 243 minutes out of 1000 minutes for October. We are spending 8 days in New Zealand at the end of the month, and while I’m sure that will involve a lot of walking and moving, it will also involve a lot of sitting (in the car) and wine drinking! So I’m not sure how to properly record that one yet. Will play it by ear.
The biggest problem I’m finding with losing weight is the mental side (that, and not have anything to wear as my clothes are all falling down! It’s expensive to replace a wardrobe, especially when you try to do it cheaply through eBay and then end up with things that don’t fit or end up paying an over-draft fee because paypal takes a couple of days to take your money by which time you’ve forgotten about the payment that’s still to come out and you’ve bought groceries and petrol and …. sorry what was I saying?).
Uhhhh, right, the mental side of losing weight…when I look in the mirror I still see the same me, 10 kgs ago. I still see “problem” bits that I’d like to get rid of. I still see how far I have to go, instead of how far I have already come. It’s taken me 7 months to lost 10 kgs, so to expect another 5 to just drop off overnight is unrealistic. It’s also unrealistic to think I can work half as hard as I have been and still get the same results. My biggest and most constant fear is that I am one bad food decision, one missed personal training session away from gaining 10 kgs overnight. I’m no longer naive to think that now the weight is off, I can ease off all the training and running and maintain this weight. My body doesn’t work like that, and it will never work like that.
So time to stop making excuses and get back out there. How many minutes have you done this month? How many are you committed to? How do you find time to exercise?
Linking up with Kate Says Stuff for #OperationMOVE